We're almost at your second Christmas. You walk around everywhere now and are steadier than ever. You stay on mine and your daddy's schedule which your teacher said was okay, since you aren't old enough for it to matter, as long as you are getting the sleep you need.
The other night in bed you managed to get your diaper off, AGAIN! Only this time, you wet the bed. So we learned real quick that pajamas with bottoms instead of just a shirt, is a must! LoL! I laugh at how spoiled you're getting. Your daddy and I are in trouble later! LoL! And your Uncle only serves to spoil you more at times! It's so funny, you have a set schedule every day. You wake up, every morning, and you have to have your Uncle. First thing. And heaven forbid if he works early one morning, it just messes up your whole day. And you have to have your milk. That's your go go juice in the morning. You are so loved in this world. We put the tree up a few days ago and you are just amazed by it when you look at it. Of course, you are all about the ornaments, so I have to stay on top of you and make sure you don't grab them. Your favorite toy right now is this little plastic cow that came out of a barn that helps to teach shapes and letters. Your teacher has me teaching you nose, mouth, eyes and ears and every time I get to the ears part, you giggle, oh it's just the funniest thing.
And Symphony is teaching you ALL of her bad habits. You started growling, you yell when she barks, and you've learned that giving kisses includes the use of your tongue. That is one thing that will HAVE to change. And soon! LoL! You have also decided recently that since I call her little mama, you have deemed her mama instead of me. Unless you don't feel good or get an owie. Then you know that I'm mama. And as bad as I hate to say it, I can't help but feel a little good, knowing that I'm the one you come to when you're not feeling good. Me or dada. And you are all about dada when he's home. There are just so many aspects of you and your life that I just love. And I mean all of it except for when you hurt or don't feel good, and I know that there's nothing I can do about it. Getting an owie is one thing. One kiss and it's all better. But when you have an upset tummy like last night, or when you're running a fever and all I can do is hold you, knowing that it's not going to make it stop, those are the times that I hate.
There are so many things that I want to do with you as you grow. I told your grandma the other day that if you and I can have just half of the relationship that she and I have, I will consider myself extremely blessed. You have to understand, my mama was my mom first, and my friend second. And that distinction was so hard for me to discern sometimes and I couldn't stand it. But now that I'm older I realize that if she hadn't been my mom first, we wouldn't have the relationship we have today, and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. So I hope you know, I'm gonna be your mom first. And there are times that you're not going like me, and you're going to wish we weren't related, but I'm still gonna love you, and still gonna be your mom first. Anyway, I will close this chapter and continue, another night. Love you little girl!
Mama
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